I won’t say i dont understand it bc ik i been witnessing it from the time i realised what it was. I literally cannot imagine, i never did nor could; that people slipped outta my hands that swiftly. That they could always run out and that is why it is so important to hold onto …
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reaction formation.
it feels terrible now; to not being able to do things i once believed constituted, all that was within me. it feels irrational to not being able to talk about myself yet seek an unapologetic, unsolicited validation online. it’s all about the way we talk i feel, and whenever i’ve felt this i’ve unknowingly constrained …
Is anybody there?
I’m not fine today. Am I sick? I want to run away and never come back because I know no arms will hold me and accept me, as theirs. I told my mother i felt ugly within this body; she assured, yes, true, but beauty is faltering and transient and everything that hurts I wanted …
Im just a bit needy, sometimes.
I’m sorry in advance that I did it today but I needed it despite my body’s boundations being for the time being (i was on my periods)… ouukaay…so… Mmmmm… So yeah…I was um lowkey thinking about it.. I know.. since the whole day in the back of my mind somewhere…and I was refraining from the …
wish you knew.
I’m dumb I’m dumb I’m dumb I’m dumb I’m dumb I’m dumb I’m dumb I’m dumb I’m dumb I’m dumb I’m dumb I’m dumb I’m dumb I’m dumb I’m dumb I’m dumb I’m dumb im dumb I’m dumb I’m dumb I’m dumb I’m dumb im dumb im dumb im dumb im dumb im dumb im …
i called because.
i called because its been getting horrible lately. no matter how hard I try, I end up reaching out because its difficult. because again I’m feeling too much and there’s nothing I can’t do about it . i hate it when I can’t talk about it with anyone because I fear myself, im insecure about …
forlorn experiences.
I thought, i really thought that i was special. We all want to be the special one in someone’s eye right we accept it or not, that’s the gig; brutal, honest and everything real. And as we are trapped by the universal art of self loathing, very obviously, we don’t think about ourselves the way …
The Journey Begins
Thanks for joining me! Good company in a journey makes the way seem shorter. — Izaak Walton
idiosyncrasies of a young adult. 